Sunday, October 09, 2005

(Can't) Let Go

Along the early course of Drizzle's spiritual reawakening, she shared a verse that blew her mind. I understood the deepness but didn't fully appreciate it. Until lately. Jeremiah 17:9 (NIV): The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?

Through my own experiences and the travails of others I have realized the seriousness of that question. Who the hell can understand it? Somehow the heart can develop attachments without you knowing it. Severing those attachments sometimes are near impossible. Even when you logically know that it isn't the thing for you to do. The universe might send you hundreds of cosmic signs to corroborate everything your mind is saying. Yet the heart just can't let things die. Or lets things go that would be beneficial due to its unkwnown desires.

It has plagued me lately. The heart is just insane. Another version says that it's "desperately wicked." That seems apropriate because what other entity would try to bring down the very thing that is keeping it alive.

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