Saturday, December 31, 2005

End Of The Year

So I haven't written in like two months. And what? I haven't done much of anything else productive either. There was a point when I had written a list of all the things I wanted to talk about. But those are probably irrelevant now and I'd have to look for it. Way too much trouble.

But I'd be remiss if I didn't do a little recap of the big developments.

1) I am in the process of developing a television show called Walking with Adam. This has developed due to the fact that I have found myself having quite coherent and intelligent conversations with myself when I am walking to and fro wherever I go. Funny enough I always seem to find the camera.

2) The psychiatric hypochondriac has resurfaced probably due to my working with these children 40 hours a week. I think I might have dysthymia. Or I am just another 20 something who can't make up his mind and likes being lazy. But I think it actually might be in the former. I need too much help to be in a good mood. Maybe I should just get some antidepressants from Canada. It would help cut down my libido too.

3) People are quite insane. It's unfortunate.

Enough with the depression though. Let's look back on all that has been accomplished.

1) I actually got myself a job. A job I actually enjoy and feel worthwhile doing. Though the mental fatigue is taxing at times, at the end of the day I am quite happy with what I do.

2) I actually got an apartment. An apartment that many love to come too. All with minimal effort. And I have a king size bed affectionately referred to as the Olive Garden. That's pretty sweet.

3) Despite my efforts at self-sabotage, I am actually within a semester of graduating. Amazing after such an extended period of time.

4) People genuinely seem to enjoy my presence. That's pretty decent.

5) And I got a digital camera. Why did they unleash me? Who knows?

So what will the new year bring? Most of all it would be nice to have some clarity. As Drizzle made me realize, there seems to be quite a bit of fog in my crystal ball. So just figuring some stuff out would be quite wonderful. I would like to enjoy myself a little more. That doesn't mean party ezactly but just genuinely be happy more often. And I just want to have some real faith that things will work out. Because so far I really have nothing to complain about.

So peace out 2005. 2006: Be gentle. Let's do the damn thing